MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, March 31, 2005~~

Omg...1 more paper to go n that's the end of academic torture. (at least for tis sem!) Tml's physio..my god, y i still feel quite panicky. Cos i din take bio in sec sch mar? Rubbish..haha. Its 6.16pm now, 15hrs to exams. Why dun feel loaded wif info!! Sicko. Yest chem was mentally tiring, ha, so din touch my books n all for physio. Till now, i onli flipped 2 chapz, wad the...

okok...by 7pm muz start somemore browsing again..need to get my brain to work work work! Cant slp v late too...cos tml 9am paper..tink i'll reach sch at..8? haha..

Aft sch meeting fren at mac den after duno meeting another fren anot..haha...actuali dun really anticipate meeting tis fren at mac, cos i enjoy e meal..but her passion to spread gospel these days is getting on my nerves again..ha..she nv did pressure me tho', she noes tt if she starts, i'll run. haha. But yeah, its becoming a habit i guess. They will relate ALOT to their saviour i guess. Altho' i dun lyk e idea of tt cos i tink tt we shld all choose a religion by faith, not by being pulled into it. I muz say i m so glad tt tis fren of mine has made her choice to get herself to believe in christianity. It has changed her a darn lot for e better. In e past, always been e wild 1. Now, still as daring since her past made her tis way alr, haha, but wild wif a sense of maturity n responsibilty now. ha. Hence, altho' i m not a believer in her religion, i'm glad tt she changed for e better. So, if a religion can mould any1 to be sum1 righteous n good-natured, i dun see wad's wrong lar...just dun start preaching to me, cos i dun take it. i believe wad i wanna believe. hek hek.

Anyway, i've got so much to do wif so little time tis wk!!! Need to go get my stuffs and prepare for e M'sia trip. Oh, for those who's nt aware, i m goin for a M'sia culture trip wif the drama pple tis following mon from 4/4 to 7/4. Sounds gr8? Nah, gonna be performing plays for all 3 days i tink. Diaoz. Den i wun getta go VCH on 4/4 for e rehearsal...dammit. Boy, tink i m really into my guitar man. Gotta reach by 6.45am on mon lor...diaoz....nvm. Its a task n i will do it. Ha. Oh still need to contact quite a number of pple cos i've been really busy wif stuffs so i've told dem to wait. haha...gonna contact dem 1 by 1 aft exams...n aft the M'sia trip...and eh...after virtuoso XII...haha... Cant stand it, goin of to M'sia for 4 days, and virtuoso by den will b lyk 3 days away. Argh...! that means when i return i onli hav lyk 2 days to practise be4 performance! ARh..y cant it be in sg...feel lyk lugging guitar and scores there man...i muz b mad..ha..its ok..tink will spend tml, sat and sun practise lyk mad at hm...that is, if i m not out. which i tink is quite hard to stay hm for 3 days lor.

wad plans do U all haf after e exams? Any outings to call on me? I v free de! *hints* haha.. joking joking.. was supposed to play mahjong overnite tis sat and sun, but judgin by my limited time to practise guitar, hmm...duno shld forgo it anot..haha... but tinks i sure try to do in e hols is to play mahjong, get some frenz to hang out n meditate wif my guitar at hm..oh yar..if not rite, den i will jus be a loner n stay hm. haha..

Hai...suddenly feel so energetic toking abt things to do after exams...but now when my mind jus return to today, and physio...my mood totally fluctuate...darn. ok den, let those things moltivate me baz, i try start work again le...haha...hm...maybe i shall take a trip to the loo 1st...den read 8 days 1st den start...argh......! No...diaoz...ok, go to the loo den sit down properly and read thru'...

-Sh*t-

"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me...My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating...Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me...'Til then I walk alone"- Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

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